BORJONER: THE PROCESS OF BURGEONING

Happy New Year to the MOTHER/MUSIC/HOOD! Here’s to a brand new year, with 12 brand spanking new months to explore, create and burgeon out of. The next few blog posts (mixed in here and there) will feature the process of my debut album which fingers crossed should be coming out June 2020. I’m also hoping to give you a few sneak peeks and giveaways and such via this medium.

When I began this process just under a year ago, I was starting to get the feeling that I could dream a little bit. My youngest was over a year old, and I was coming out of the fog of nursing and epic all night wake ups. The thing is, when you start to get a little more sleep the idea of working and doing something for yourself becomes a possibility. Now that it has been a spell and the recording is over, I am realizing that the hard work must begin (or HAS ALREADY!) It’s not the opening up of oneself that is hard as a mother-we do it everyday. But the behind the scenes work that goes into releasing, and I mean REALLY releasing an album is so much more than I had anticipated.
When I think about the title of the album, BORJONER (Old French for burgeoning), it couldn’t be more accurate for how I really do feel. It is as though I am clawing through the soil upwards and downwards. This idea is best described in the following discussion on the metaphysics of plants:

“Poets and philosophers such as Johann Wolfgang von Goethe and Rudolf Steiner, who took the trouble to watch plants, discovered that they grow in opposite directions, partly burrowing in to the ground as if attracted by gravity, partly shooting up into the air as if pulled by some form of antigravity, or levity”

— The Secret Life of Plants, Peter Tompkins

What beautiful imagery, in that our growth also promotes rootedness, something that I have not felt in a long time or not in a positive way anyhow. Before I started exploring my new post-children self, I felt trapped by parenthood with no real sense of freedom. But now that I have begun the process of burgeoning and shooting up towards the sun, I can feel the roots begin to firm up and make me feel stable underground. May you also firm up your roots and aim for the sun. Enjoy this track from Stevie Wonder’s album The Secret Life of Plants.