THE REAL WEIGHT OF COVID 19: PART FOUR
Weight.
Weight can be heavy and heaviness can be unbearable. But weight can also mean, having great weight to something. When you are too light, it can feel like you are floating, but without direction. Weight gives direction, and meaning.
These past few weeks, I have felt like I was under some great, invisible weight, and it felt inconvenient. Even after my experience with Gabby, I am still the first to say, me me me, we’re hurting the most. After a most generous encounter yesterday, I was sent into a meditation of deep gratitude, and the rest of the day rapidly changed direction. As this angel was leaving yesterday, she mentioned that, although she felt out of place saying it, that there would be great beauty in all of this. We’ve already seen it in essays popping up in your newsfeeds. It’s true.
I was introduced to this quote by The Children’s Reading Place newsletter:
“My barn having burned down, I can now see the moon.
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It reminded me of an encounter I had with an old english teacher after the flood in 2013. He lived right off the river, and lost all of his basement possessions. When I asked him how he had been doing, he said he felt a great weight lifted off in losing all these things that had been weighing him down. It is this sense of burden, a burden of riches, that suffocates us. In times like these, we are freed of our burdens in order to see what is necessary for our survival.
It has also allowed me to see the weight that my husband has carried over the past 10 years, being the income earner, the entrepreneur, and that I am ready to take on some of that weight, to bring new purpose to our lives, marriage and family.
I had a dream last night that old friends, friends who I never thought would need my help, showed up at my door. Well friends, my door is open and waiting to receive you. xx